Keep in mind that this was poorly written at 1 AM on my cell phone so my grammar and spelling is probably not right ha ha ha ha ha ok
ok SO obviously I'm in this weird dilemma where I am conflicted on everything in the world right
so I'm gonna give Dean a shot
we will hang out a few times
it's possible we will work out
but on the real, we would probably hang out a couple times then I'll realize what a crazy party boy he is and I will decide that I don't want that in my life
BUT this fling will last for a month or two
within that month or two, word will spread. rafa will spill to jake or something and jake will know and decide that he, too, is done with me
BUT!!! we are partners so there's no way to escape me:))))) no naturally we are forced to still hang out
once Dean and I are over I will be in an uncomfortable situation w no boy and jake will realize how stupid he was for letting me go
thus we will get back together
we will be happy
we will be stupid
we will fight
once he realizes he's half rebound he will let me go once again
by this time it has already been decided that I am director and he is financial executive so once again we are stuck with each other
he will move on first
he will date some girl
probably a mutual friend of ours
I will be upset
I will not talk to him
I will fall back into my partying habits and go to every frat party known to man
at this point in time I have been so frustrated with my flex friends that I am actually involved in my own sorority
all my sorority friends are alcoholics and naturally I become one too, becoming the exact opposite of what jake looks for in a girl
I will find someone who treats me well
probably a current freshmen
he will make me swerve away from my party habits
both jake and I will be in relationships with different people
we are on exec staff together so we have to talk
we become best friends again
then I go to nursing school
and he does whatever he wants to do
and we will no longer be friends
my boyfriend and I will break up bc I'm too busy with school
I graduate nursing school while I'm talking to a guy also in my program
I find a job at the local hospital in Austin
sad and lonely and living with my parents
the guy I'm talking to decides not to go to Austin for work, but to Dallas and I am heartbroken once again
my parents are driving me insane so who do I hang out with in Austin????
high school friends
specifically, Carson
Carson will hit on me casually and I will pretend that nothing is happening until the day that he says "Michelle, why haven't we thought about being together?"
my mind is exploding because that's disgusting
I say "fuck you" run away and get a job in Dallas, following my nursing school fling
I become head nurse at the biggest hospital in Dallas
me, being silly me, will try to get into the same program as the Dallas fling
BUT I know I want to stay in pediatrics so I'm conflicted
sad sad me barely sees Dallas fling
I work hard
I have no friends
one night I go to the bar downtown and see someone else who works at my hospital
but I am too shy to say hello. I chug my sex on the beach and continue to mingle with the people I am with
my friend looks at me and says omg there's something on your shirt
embarrassed, I go to the bathroom to check it out
on the walk there I am staring at my shirt trying to get it out and NATURALLY, I run into a person
I look up
it's...... NOT THE DALLAS FLING!!!!!
it's the hot anesthesiologist from floor 4 HELLO
his name is Clay
he says "hi! don't you work at St. Joseph's hospital?"
blushing and embarrassed that I ran into him I cannot form words I simply smile
he looks deeply into my eyes
leans in
and says "would you like to get some food?"
TRUST ME, I was thinking it was a kiss too!!!!!
we leave the bar and go to the Cheesecake Factory across the street
we laugh
we have fun
we learn about each other
we find out that we're both from Austin
we eat
we get cheesecake
he is embarrassed to find out that I don't even like cheesecake
we laugh it off and decide to get ice cream for dessert instead
we walk to the nearest ice cream store only to realize it's closed.....
because it's 2:33 AM
time has flown by!!!!!!
didn't even REALIZE that we were together for that long!!!!!!
that's how much we liked each other
he drives me home, where I live with these 2 shits shiv and bri
they are eavesdropping and I know it
he walks me to my door
nervous, I ask if he wants to come in
he says "no, but there's always tomorrow" and grins
WHAT A GENTLEMAN
he says goodbye and kisses me on the cheek, lets go of my hands and I repeat, "there's always tomorrow"
GRINNING FROM CHEEK TO CHEEK I TURN AROUND AND THERE IS BRI AND SHIV!!!!!! already standing there waiting
we jump around and drink wine and I finally get my ice cream
bri's boyfriend, russell, comes over with more wine and jumps around with us
shiv's boyfriend, Jonathan is still @ navy or wherever he is but he also face times in and gets wasted from far away
the next morning we wake up and there is a card that was slid under the door from the anesthesiologist, Clay
Clay. the card is from clay! it has an address and a time.
624 Parkway Circle
7:30 PM
I go to work
I see him
he sees me
he waves
I wave
we are both busy with patients
we simply smile
7:15 PM I leave our condo
I drive to this address and I am amazed.............
it's a park with a beautiful archway entrance
keep in mind that daylight savings is a thing so it's still light outside ok
I follow the path. confused on where he is. I don't even have his number so I can't call and ask
the path leads to a river in the middle of the park where Clay is sitting on a blanket with a basket facing the river
he hears my footsteps and turns around and smiles
I sit down and he kisses me on the cheek
"you're just in time," he says
"the sun is about to set"
we watch the sun set as we eat our poorly made turkey and cheddar sandwiches
(I really don't know where this story is going but I'm not tired so I'm still going)
we eat
we laugh
we lose track of time
we enjoy each other
he pulls out dessert and I laugh... it's cheesecake
he asks me to be his girlfriend
we go on more dates
we get to know one another
I learn to love cheesecake
I learn to love him
but don't get me wrong this isn't a perfect love story
we're both smart, strong minded people who have strong opinions
we fight
a lot
we cry
we laugh
the biggest argument we had?
over whether or not gluten is a real allergy
we both use science to back up our argument
but it gets too heated
the argument has moved on to how an anesthesiologist is smarter than a nurse so he knows better
infuriated, I walk away and say i hate him I say he has wasted so many years of my life
clay regrets talking down to the nursing career immediately after saying it but it's too strong minded to admit he was in the wrong
it had been a long day. I had lost a patient (and keep in mind that I am a pediatric nurse so it's really sad) and I had rear ended someone on my drive home
I wasn't having it
clay grabs me and says he's sorry and that he loves me and he wants to be with me forever
pushover Michelle looks up with forgiving eyes
I say "today was the worst day of my life"
he wipes my tears away and says "but there's always tomorrow"
at this point we had been dating for ten months
spending every day with kids, I can't help but want a few of my own
but what do I say?? how could I even ASK to have kids if we weren't even married
we date for more months
slowly shiv and bri both move out to live with their boyfriends and I am alone in our condo
oh of course
wine and ice cream nights all the time
I put up fliers for roommates. preferably ones that aren't crazy
I meet a lot of crazy girls
crack addicts, mainly
but one day I get a call from a potential roommate
"hello?"
"hi"
the voice sounded familiar
"did you get my number from the flier?"
"oh.... no."
"oh I'm sorry, who is this?"
the caller hangs up
confused, I am standing in the living room of our condo
someone knocks on the door
ah yes, I forgot I invited Clay over
I open the door
it's the Dallas fling, whose name is Robert. He goes by James tho
WHAT
WHAT
HOW
NO
Robert is at my door. he is actually at my door. how is this happening.
"I saw your flier"
"....it's been so long James"
"I just... I have to tell you something"
"ok yeah come in!"
he slowly walks in
very hesitant
"so what's up?"
"remember that one day in nursing school when you told me about getting a job at the Austin hospital?"
"yeah"
"I applied there too"
"oh"
"after I found out that's where you had decided to go"
"oh"
James looks down at his feet and twiddles his fingers
he looks up
there are tears in his eyes
what is going on??? I'm so confused as to why James had come here
"I love you"
holy
fucking
shit
do I love him too???
do I want this???
do I want him???
tears
tears come straight to my eyes
why
why would this happen now
he pulls me closer
"I know you. I love you. I know you love me too"
he kisses me
in shock... I kiss back
mid-kiss i can't help but feel like this is wrong
the door opens right as I'm pulling away
it's Clay
holy
fucking
shit
what have I done
I look at James then at Clay then at James again
Clay walks out
I stand there, in shock
"get out" I say
"but Michelle"
" I said get OUT!!!!!!!!"
what
have
I
done
James hurries out the door and I am still standing in the exact same position I was in beforehand
I Sprint like Shiv and Bri taught me how to on the treadmills in college
I'm running but I don't know where I'm running to
I run so fast that I don't even look around
but I hear a big "fuck you"
I turn around and watch Clay punch James
that is not the Clay I fell in love with
so I turn around and keep running
I keep running and I run right into a person
I look up, apologizing and wiping my tears away
Jake
he looks at me in shock as well
we haven't seen each other for years
his hair is better
he has more weight/muscle
overall he looks better
I look at his hand
no ring
he hugs me and we walk around the square downtown
turns out he lives 3 streets over
he's successful & shit
he has a girlfriend
he asks me about me
I ask him about him
we laugh
we get to know each other once again
like old times
he gives me advice for Clay and tell me not to lose him
he drives me home and we watch Grease until I fall asleep
when I wake up he is gone and there is a handwritten note saying "you fell asleep so I carried you to your bed. I miss you and love you and you will always mean a lot to me."
I am too embarrassed to talk to Clay
I never ever want to see James
jake and hang out more
we become the best friends that we used to be
bri and shiv come live with me for a week and we get white girl wasted every single night
(((tbh I'm so invested in this story that I don't even have a solution for potential Michelle)))
like seriously tho... Clay would be so upset and I can't just say sorry and expect it to be okay
we both still go to work
I see him on floor five and he waves
I wave
it's awkward
I get a call from an unknown number
"hello?"
"hi is this Michelle Hoang?"
"yes this is she"
"hi we need you to come to St. Joseph's Hospital immediately. there has been an emergency"
"I'm here right now, what's wrong?"
"it's your father"
I run to the fifth floor where I find my dad being prepped for surgery. He was in a car crash and has head injuries and needs to be taken care of immediately
I argue saying that I am a nurse, begging for them to let me scrub in
they say no
I begin to cry, standing there in shock
a hand grabs my shoulder and turns me around
Clay
he ensures me that he will be on the surgical team and will make sure my dad is okay
he tells me he has called some of my friends to be here for me
I walk out of the room, frantically looking for tissues and when I look up... there's Makenna holding a box of tissues
she hugs me and tells me that bri shiv and jake are in the lobby waiting for us
the 5 of us spend time together and wait
and wait
and wait
we waited for hours
we talked
we laughed
we even sang a frozen song
it was like 2015
I had almost forgotten that there was anything bad in the world
then a hand was laid on my shoulder
chills went down my spine
I swallowed
I turned around
Clay
I just broke into tears and he held me in his arms
he was okay
dad was okay
everything was okay
I looked up at Clay and he wiped my tears away, leaned in, and kissed me
"I love you"
"I love you too"
like I said, our relationship wasn't perfect
but what relationship is
I found my new roommate
it was Clay
we get a pet fish and name her angel
months pass by
I wake up one day to a card slid under the door
I open it
it says: 624 Parkway Circle
7:30 PM
it's our 15 month anniversary
I get excited
I go to work
I come home
Clay is no where to be found but I'm okay with it
at 7:15 I leave my condo and arrive to the archway to the park
I walk the path and reach the river and once again, Clay has set out a picnic blanket
he has me sit facing the sunset and he sits behind me, taking cheesy pictures and telling me not to turn around
the sun sets and Clay tells me to turn around
there he was
on one knee
holding up a ring that shined in the light
but in the long run I marry Clay and have 3 kids (1st is girl- Carson, 2nd is boy- Jackson)
take off work while the kids are young and go back once they're old enough
my kids will be soccer kids
all of them
I will be the ultimate soccer mom
Jackson will be super athletic and also play tennis
Carson is also going to be a ballerina
once they go to college or maybe once they're out of college I will pursue a life dream of becoming a cruise director
(the person who runs the entertainment and the marriage show and stuff like that)
and then I'll live on a cruise ship for 10/12 months of the year until I'm like 50 or when I have grandkids then I'll come home and retire and be happy
the end
I also want to build houses
well, design them really
I want to build really exquisite houses and live in them then sell them for a much higher price than I spent on it
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